Ruminating in the middle of the night
The contemplative thought abusing my mind
Who am I if not the worst of everyone else?
The heart to learn of the top scorers
The mouth of drunken revelers
If you take it all away, it leaves a barren shelf

You tell me you like me
But I've just been hiding
Playing cards right from your hand
Who am I meant to be?
When your eyes are off me
I don't know how to be unmanned

I don't think I've changed a bit in seven years
Faked every laugh but still felt every tear
Too many things I have put up as a show
Next year's another circus act to mime
Every conversation pointless lines to rhyme
Are my false pretentions the me that people know?
Well, what else of me do I have to show?

You tell me you like me
But I've just been hiding
Playing cards right from your hand
Who am I meant to be?
When your eyes are off me
I don't know how to be unmanned

(In another life)
(Be your puzzle piece)
(Seems like everyone lied)
(Is this my age)
(Hope that after having me you've)
(Do you love me?)
(I'm left with only guesses)
(Who's your)

Would you really like me?
The way that you'd see me
If I found who I really am?
Cause I've just been hiding
Carefully reflecting
Whatever characterisation I can
So when the night falls
And we end our calls
I'm left being a shell of Man
Who am I meant to be?
When your eyes are off me
With only myself to hold these hands

(Play it again)

I wrote Meant To Be after I got off a call with my friends in 2022. I remember having so much fun talking with them late into the night and yet as soon as I put down the phone it kind of felt like I was empty. the entire chorus was written that night and didn't get changed much since then. at its core, this song asks the question of "who am I, really?" and I don't think I have an answer still.

the entire EP is kind of a reflection of that. every song has different sonic inspirations, from the heavily processed guitar on Blue Hour borrowing from shoegaze to the Phoebe Brigers-inspired plucked guitars on Side Street Stalker and the pop punk angst of Firsts. in life, I have also done much of the same, where I change personalities to fit in.

however, I feel like doing that has also helped me get closer to understanding who I really am. as I try new things, some stick and some don't, and removing those incongurent parts slowly shapes myself.